September 20, 2011

Green Emotions & Green Enchiladas

Ten years from now, I will only have ten blog entries if I keep up the pace I'm at. There are a few reasons why my posts are months weeks apart. It's been a whirlwind kind of summer. While I have gotten sick several times this summer since moving to the Lowcountry, I will admit I've been kind of depressed. Which is probably why I was getting sick. Now that I'm on the other side of this melancholia I guess I can say it started like after 4th of July. Our things had been delivered in late June and I was feeling overwhelmed by the colossal amount of unpacking and organizing. I my soul craves order and the stability of having two feet planted firmly on the ground. Every morning the boxes were a reminder that my life was still in a huge transition. I was shutting down. Still drinking soda despite my last post (when depressed, I crave SUGAR!!!) and I was spending most of my day in bed, napping throughout the day and only getting up for meals and to straighten up so the Mr. wouldn't know that I'm a total waste of life.

Credit: Natalie Dee
I was struggling with migraines, still, and was just feeling crappy overall. Then at the end of July I was hit with a major kidney infection. I was a total and complete train wreck. I don't get sick very often but when I do, it is like crazy intense illnesses. This forced me to say goodbye to my beloved Dr. Pepper. It forced my titration to come to a dead halt. Now whenever I have back pain I'm all freaked out of fear of going through that again.

Then we got the news that the Mr. would be deploying soon. It was difficult to hear that. I mean we just began living together again after a year apart. I knew that I'd eventually hear those words but it sucked that it came so soon. Then came our trip to visit family back home in California. That was fun and awesome. We celebrated our nephew's 8th birthday, visited with friends, ate at our favorite Italian restaurant, and I got to spend some time with my two favorite kids in the whole wide world...Zackary and Zoey.

Saying goodbye to them and my sister was the hardest part of the trip. I cried harder this time than I did when I first left. My sister is the mirror image of my soul and these two kids are the left and right hands of my heart. As hard as it was to say goodbye, I found myself excited about going back home and getting back into our routine. Maybe it was because I forced myself, in the haze of my depression, to go to a few spouse outings. I met friends and it gave me some structure and filled in some of the gaps. I now have other people to talk to besides the Mr., other women who are in my shoes and get it!

I remember telling myself before that first outing, that this would be good for me. That I would never regret spending a few hours showered, dressed like a normal person, meeting normal people, doing normal things. I know myself and myself wants to sit in bed all day, not answer the phone, lost in the TV or internet. The darkness is painful but the predictability of it is comforting. It sounds totally off but anyone who isolates will understand. But I've learned to talk myself out of it and I can begin to identify when I'm making decisions out of fear and pain. I've learned those decisions are never all that good for me. So I went out and I met some really nice ladies who are fast becoming friends.

The Mr. is currently out on a TDY and will be returning in a few days. This sucks but is also helping me prepare for the deployment. Since he's been gone I've unpacked some things we had put away as Hurricane Irene was nearing us. I also painted our bedroom! It was a dull white and I need color. I admit that the green is kind of neon-looking but it was wet here. Well as I was done with the white trim, I spilled the whole bucket of white paint! This is a picture of it after it was 90% cleaned up. It was 2am and I was pissed. I had to repaint 2 walls! But if you see in the picture below, it is much lighter and really soothing-looking and more accurate.


It was an interesting week in my house. As I continued along in my home improvement agenda I painted and sanded some frames I wanted to hang in the living room. This was my inspiration...

This was my end result...

Not before Cinnamon made a Lunchable out of one of my starfish while I stepped out...

Tonight I made something I can't normally make when the Mr. is home. He's not too keen on veggies and I love them! So I took advantage and made Green Chicken Enchiladas. But this time I made it completely gluten-free and with veggies!! You can use a variety of veggies but I stuck with what I had at home...broccoli, onion, frozen corn. I would have liked to add cauliflower and spinach or nopales (Spanish for cactus). Here it goes...

Gluten-free Green Chicken Enchiladas
Shredded chicken prepared to your liking.
(I boil chicken in bouillon and then shred)
Bag of tortilla chips (1)
Preferred veggies
Grated Mexican Blend cheese
Salsa Verde (3-4 jars)

Heat 1-2 jars of Salsa Verde on the stovetop.
Allow onion to sweat in some olive oil.
Add in veggies then add in remaining salsa jars.
Crush half the bag of chips into small pieces.
Lay a thin layer of warmed salsa at the bottom of a casserole dish.
Then layer chips.
Then chicken.
Then veggie/salsa mix.
Then cheese.
Then some more salsa to ensure all chips are wet.
Continue layering until you run out of space or some of your ingredients.
Finish the top with lots of cheese and dump the rest of your sauce on top.
If you run low on salsa, add in some water from your boiled chicken or add in chicken broth.
Cover with foil.
Bake at 400 degrees for 45-60 minutes.

All ingredients used are gluten-free and can be found on the Trader Joe's website where they have a comprehensive list of all their gluten-free foods! There is also a downloadable version as well!
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention we finally got a TJ's!!! This has also helped me feel more at home!

Thanks for reading my soooooper long blog. I promise to come back regularly to avoid these crappy and lengthy updates.

Stay happy, stay hungry!

1 comment:

AF wifey said...

Hope you are feeling better and out of the depression funk... I know all about it girl! I wish you lived closer to me because I think we would really get along! Oh I absolutely adore your picture frames and those curtains! :) I was just telling my mom the other day that I have been wanting to make enchiladas... I think you just inspired me!

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